For the past nearly 8 months i fought for the better tomorrow. I endured hardship upon hardship to come out of the place that brings the darkest emotions, the deepest fears to the surface. I found strength inside me that i never knew was there.
And i am about to throw it all away for uncertainty of the life to come because i believed him again.
May God help.
Tuesday, August 7, 2018
Monday, July 16, 2018
Light breeze
Porzucilam ciemne jaskinie, tak bardzo tesknilam za słońcem.
Siadam na piasku, pamietam twoja dłoń, zawsze gotowe twe ręce, zeby zlapac mnie kiedy popchniesz zbyt mocno, mowiles, ze ratowales tyle razy, nie pozwoliłes nigdy upasc.
Dziekuje.
Teraz tańczę z wiatrem i wplatam kwiaty we włosy i płaczę, płaczę z radosci, z wdzięczności, w podziekowaniu za oczy, ktore brutalnie mi otworzono. Juz wszystko rozumiem.
Siadam na piasku, pamietam twoja dłoń, zawsze gotowe twe ręce, zeby zlapac mnie kiedy popchniesz zbyt mocno, mowiles, ze ratowales tyle razy, nie pozwoliłes nigdy upasc.
Dziekuje.
Teraz tańczę z wiatrem i wplatam kwiaty we włosy i płaczę, płaczę z radosci, z wdzięczności, w podziekowaniu za oczy, ktore brutalnie mi otworzono. Juz wszystko rozumiem.
Tuesday, July 3, 2018
BRmth
I'm still bleeding. Picking at the memories, searching for familiar smells, closing my eyes.
You are here again. It's one of the good days, light breeze, I'm not thinking of tomorrow.
Calm sea at my feet, i feel the sand, horizon is pink now, all is peace.
I wish i could become a foam riding the waves, just once more get so lost in our slow loving, when your breath tickles my neck, forget that I now belong to someone else.
You are here again. It's one of the good days, light breeze, I'm not thinking of tomorrow.
Calm sea at my feet, i feel the sand, horizon is pink now, all is peace.
I wish i could become a foam riding the waves, just once more get so lost in our slow loving, when your breath tickles my neck, forget that I now belong to someone else.
Friday, June 29, 2018
First
He is here, my man. So generous and I am accepting of whatever and everything he gifts me with.
His shoulders my home, my shelter.
When I look up into his eyes, I meet calm of the face that I adore.
We are at the wild sea of the past, my boat isn't shaken no more.
Rays of warm, accepting sun pierce through my entire body.
I cry.
I cry for this day . As i cried back then when loneliness was the sister I've never had.
When i used to call onto the empty walls and touch myself to keep my mind from falling into the pit of despair.
The land is within reach now. I never thought I would be so free.
But here he is.
He's the wind in my hair. My tears all gone, salt on his lips. I am trembling.
Ecstasy is to follow while we seal the day with a kiss or a hundred of them .
I fall floating with clouds until the very next morning when i open my eyes and pray for my dreams to come true.
His shoulders my home, my shelter.
When I look up into his eyes, I meet calm of the face that I adore.
We are at the wild sea of the past, my boat isn't shaken no more.
Rays of warm, accepting sun pierce through my entire body.
I cry.
I cry for this day . As i cried back then when loneliness was the sister I've never had.
When i used to call onto the empty walls and touch myself to keep my mind from falling into the pit of despair.
The land is within reach now. I never thought I would be so free.
But here he is.
He's the wind in my hair. My tears all gone, salt on his lips. I am trembling.
Ecstasy is to follow while we seal the day with a kiss or a hundred of them .
I fall floating with clouds until the very next morning when i open my eyes and pray for my dreams to come true.
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